>> 20070520
11:47 PM

been talking to leyi(papa) and diamonds(dear) much lately. they are fun. they gimme sth new to look forward to everyday, making life less boring. at the same time though, they also demostrate how emo, rough, jealous, flirtacious, corrupted people can actually get. i have to comment that i give it up to leyi's uncanny ability to remain indifferent about bullying and giving me hell of a 'good' time, and her least hesitant disposal of the word 'molest' against me, although i would find her take her hands and running them inch for inch all over my body. =\ then i also have to put my hands down for diamonds for owning me in my once familiar and frequent area- arcade. she composedly sent my eyes popping out in disbelief and ego to rock bottom when she displayed her ownage trademark in wat used to be my territory. well, all exaggerated, hehehe, but true. =|

holidays are coming. i so look forward to that break, as well as all the hanging out and catching up with friends. prospect of it is just so delighting but as i find my wallet cold and empty, all the moisture of cloud 9 evaporate in an instance. also cant wait for outings and camps. no holiday for me this holiday, just staying in singapore and hear about ppl going away to so and so paradise island or highland or grassland or woodland or wadever plains for a trip. dang.

i gotta wrap up the term well so that i would be crucially motivated to start well next term. the break should allow me to put everything behind and start fresh, though deep inside i sometimes wish for another chance, another shot, or just for time to turn back. (emo now) sometimes i wish i hadnt fucked up things i fucked up. its so fucking fucked up. i hope and i try not to fucking blame myself but i just fucking cant. this world aint gonna stop spinning because i cant fucking pick myself up and it fucking spins harder to fucking mock me. ashamed of myself, my face wont lift itself up to look at the people i was once fond of, the people i love. i fucking dont understand why slim shady didnt sing me success is my only motherfucking option, failure is not sooner.


"Disenchanted"

Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

If I'm so wrong
How can you listen all night long?
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean.

If I'm so wrong
How can you listen all night long?
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

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