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hm, long time no post... how long has it been already. lol. life's a blast. its been plenty of training, socialising with people, and running from teachers. dont know how i could escape till now but i somehow managed to do it. mm, marvyn said i'm the champion, not in the good way of course, while wei arng is second. "he will skip lectuers and go for tutorials, but derrick skip classes and go for training..." lol. nvm that. i really should quit slacking and get down to some work. A levels this year. sigh.
last friday, which was 2 days ago, we played against acsi for squash. we lost 1-4... my game was bad. i felt i could do more though the final outcome would have been the same, just didnt want to think of anything except getting to the ball and hitting it. but i could have relax, and compose myself more and look at coach for reminders. well, here's one lesson learned. shall take things slowly from now.
yesterday, 29/3, acjc fun-o-rama. quite cool, quite happening, quite crowded, quite busy for us, and quite tiring. but above that, it was pretty fun. cheng and alvin came along. so did D. andy came for a short while with jes, then went home. dont know what they were up to. but nvm them. andy owes me money still, fancy asking me to treat him... jes wanted to pay for him i think, but i would never take her money. lol. didnt thought much of it at first, but from what i think of it now, i think its not that he doesnt want to pay. which guy doesnt want his pride. its just that he doesnt have money, (i know its embarrassing), but i think thats how it is? well, just an assumption here, no offence meant. im ok with donating another 10 bucks, after donating already so much to the school. =\
eh D, its naturally to be shy when u r in love with a person, at first. but try starting a conversation, get used to talking to each other and things will be fine ya. =) u have my support.
i dont know why im still up. partly waiting for my game to be downloaded =p and also to reflect upon stuff i guess. theresa has been really nice, trying hard to please and all, i really am very happy for that. but somehow, i just had to make her unhappy, sometimes through minor things, or something more major. its really terrible feeling to love someone so much, yet fail to keep her happy and mess things up. i've been thinking alot over the past 2 months or so, that if i love her so much, is it ok to give her up. i know it would not be for me if i do, but i dont want her to waste her happiness on someone not worth it. after all, it is hard to say where we'll go in time to come, whether our path runs together or whether we will *art, (i dont wanna mention that word cause its really saddening.). if it *ll e*ds here, will we get over it and be happy... life is pretty short, fate has brought us together, and i dont want to make a mistake that would leave a scar on both of us. hence i have waited. i am glad things are more stable now. let's be happy, for each other. ok? love (baby).