>> 20090921
5:52 PM

in the army now. not really coping well...

its seriously hard. have like no mood to get anything done now. i know i gotta study for As. it is important and i cant afford to screw it up again this time round. but things are just not going very smoothly and its affecting me alot.

see, the thing is, im only able to come out on weekends. and i try as much as possible to spend that time doing things i wanna do, be with people i wanna be with. and however much i try and try and try, its alr starting to wear me out, im not getting wad i wanna do done, and not spending the time with the people i wanna spend time with.

maybe im thinking too much. its all so massive and surreal, clouding and blurring my focal point which is my A levels this year. find it increasingly hard to concentrate. thinking back when i was so motivated, it was perhaps due to the strong support i got. but i dont have that kinda support now. maybe i should stop procrastinating.

study study study.
i miss her. want some attention from her.
mug mug mug.
i talk to her. shes cold and hostile.
prioritise prioritise prioritise.
i ask to meet her. shes committed to other people.
oh well. thats my life.

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